A few years back while doing some teaching in the Republic of Georgia I was riding in a car with a friend. I was sitting in the passenger seat and felt something under the throw rug under my feet. Lifting it up I discovered a thin board covering a hole in the floor that had been eaten away by rust. The only thing keeping me from the road was a board and a rug.
Rust -- corrosion that weakens the structure and integrity of the metal. Rust eats away, causing cracks that, if not treated, not only weaken a structure, but can destroy it.
Now, there are ways to avoid rust and corrosion. Treating the metal and making sure that it stays clean, free of anything that will cause it to oxidize, can protect the metal. But this takes intentionality and care.
In a similar way there can be “rust” on the soul. Compromise and half-hearted devotion can erode and eat away at that center of our life that is built around a relationship with God. Like rust, our half-hearted “yeses” to God weaken the fiber of our lives. And the real danger is that often we notice the effect only after much time has passed. Our compromises and half-measures are so plausible, so reasonable, that we don’t appreciate how they are negatively impacting our lives. They seem to make a lot of sense. In fact, we get pretty good at rationalizing and can even rationalize with great conviction. After all, we have to live in the real world. Our consumer-driven, efficiency-minded, success and result-oriented culture places pretty high demands on us. At least, so we rationalize. But deep in our hearts we know that something is not right.
In the Book of Revelation, God says to the Church of Laodicea: “I know your works; you are neither cold nor hot. I wish that you were either cold or hot. So, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I am about to spit you out of my mouth” (Revelation 2:15-16). This vivid picture is a striking warning about deceiving ourselves. It a warning about the danger of saying an enthusiastic “yes” to God’s forgiveness and salvation, but only a qualified “yes” to the daily obedience that life requires.
And while this self-deception and half-heartedness is a danger for all of us, it is especially true for those in leadership positions. There is a Hasidic story in which Rabbi Jizchak Meir said: “When one assumes a position of leadership, many things are required: yeshiva, an office, a desk, chairs, an administrator, a janitor, etc. And then comes the evil enemy and takes away the innermost point, but all the rest remains as it was and the wheel keeps turning, only the inner point fails.” The inner point is the relationship with God. The story reminds us that it is possible to have a thriving, prestigious, even well-thought of organization without the inner point. “Success” in the world’s sense of the term, is no evidence of faithfulness and approval by God. The tragedy in all this is that with the inner point, the center, the point of reference, gone, we are left spinning our wheels and have lost the meaning of our existence and the purpose of our activities. We can all point to colleges and universities that began as Christian institutions with strong convictions and commitment to the glory of God, only to abandon that allegiance along the way. They may still be famous, prestigious, lucrative institutions, but they have lost their inner point. It can happen to churches, mission organizations, para-church organizations, and the list goes on. And as tragic as that is, it is rust on the individual soul, yours and mine, that is the most disastrous.
The Bible reminds us over and over again that in life there is always a danger of mistaken priorities. The first and greatest commandment remains: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might” (Deuteronomy 6:4-5; cf. Mark 12:30-31). To love God is to yearn for, desire, hope for, pray for, work for, strive for that which glorifies God and puts God in God’s place in our lives. To love others as we love ourselves is to desire and work for that which God desires for them. Jesus lived and proclaimed this and expects his followers to do the same. It is a call to a life of radical focus.
We have heard this before. It was, or should have been, what we were told when we were invited to follow Jesus. Some of those who begin to live their lives this way can, after a while, lose their radical focus on God. Something or someone else slips into the center, perhaps something that began as a service to God and the church. But eventually this something becomes more important than God himself. Basically, a pious idol has set itself up in our life, perhaps without our even noticing it. We still pray, we still serve, we still read our Bible, but, as we look at our prayers, it seems that they are focused on asking God to bless our most important concern (my relationships, my desires, my ministry, my church, etc). Serving God has imperceptibly and unconsciously turned into making use of God. Rust begins to corrode our soul.
For others, their faith has lost that radical orientation. They still profess faith in God and would probably identify themselves as a follower of Jesus, but the zeal and the passion are gone. So are those times of prayer and bible study. God sometimes feels close, especially at camp or a retreat or when the worship is really “happening.” But they have become consumers of religion rather than cultivators of the spiritual life.
Slowly, almost imperceptibly, the center, the inner point, that commitment to knowing and doing the will of God, loses its place and something else becomes the center. And the peace and sense of mission and joy no longer seem to be there. The real tragedy is that we often don’t realize the true state until it is almost too late. I say “almost” because it doesn’t have to end in disaster. While we may need others to help us see the deterioration in our spiritual life, it is possible to arrest the decay and weakening of our relationship with God and the dislocation of our spiritual center. A good way to come to self-knowledge and renewal is to get back to basics by focusing on Christ and especially the cross. Jesus reminds us that we are loved and the object of God’s grace and that no matter how far we have wandered or the degree of decay or breakdown in our relationship with God, we can begin again. Acknowledgement, repentance, forgiveness and a new start – all of this is grace.
So, what about you? Is there rust on your soul? What are you going to do about it?
